Anne Hélène Montreuil
The Transgender Girl - She is out and proud
The most well known Lawyer, Professor and Writer in Canada
This is likely the only major question for which there is not a logical or certain response.
The only reply that comes to my mind is that you feel deep down inside yourself that you desire to live in a different manner.
For example, one person may prefer living in the city and another in the country.
One person may prefer working for a salary and another choose self-employment.
One person may prefer to have children and another prefer not to have any.
There may be a number of factors which explain these desires, but this is not always evident.
In the same way, one man may prefer to live as a man and another may prefer to live as a woman.
the comparison is awkward but it represents nonetheless a certain
If I look at my evolution over time, I establish that I wore my first bra at the age of 13 and that I dressed myself completely at the age of 16.
In this case, I know that it was a simple curiosity of adolescence.
Why does a girl wear a bra while I do not wear one?
Why can a girl wear soft fabrics like silk, satin, nylon, etc. meanwhile I can not wear any?
The attraction of forbidden fruit is often very strong and after all, I am not harming anyone.
At the same time I first went out at the age of 25, I also did her first makeup.
It was a fantasy, it was amusing, quite exciting.
With time, I purchased more and more feminine clothing, I went out more and more often and I travelled, here and there, across the world dressed as a woman.
In 1965, at the age of 13, I put on my first bra.
I would like to know why a woman wear a bra meanwhile I do not wear one.
I would like to know the utility of a bra and I have understood when I have learned that a woman has breasts and that a man don't.
I would like to know what is the feeling for a woman who wears one.
I have found it different and interesting.
At the same age and always for curiosity, I put on my first slip and my first long one-piece bathing suit.
I have also
it different and interesting.
In 1968, at the age of 16, for the first time, I dressed myself fully as a woman.
That means that I put on a bra, a panties, pahtyhose, a dress and hight heels shoes.
I think that is was only the simple curiosity of a teeenage girl.
If I had
opportunity to fully dressed myself for Halloween, I would go out of my
home, fulfill this interesting experience and try to write down some
but this had not happen.
I would also like to know why a woman may wear some soft fabrics like silk, satin, nylon, etc meanwhile I am not allowed to wear them even if I love the the softness of these fabrics? There is a name for that : sensuality.
the forbidden fruit is often very strong and, any way, I do not harm
In 1975, at the age of 23, I have done my first make-up and my first outing, obviously during the evening, the late evening to have darkness.
It was a
but it was also amusing and exciting. I was happy but also afraid in
that someone may recognise me.
In 1977, at the age of 25, in Paris, I have done few outings fully dressed.
I have also
some gartments like a corset that I was unable to find easily in Quebec
of 25 to 34, I have done few outings fully dressed from time to time to
increse my confidence and easiness but always in a relative anonymity.
In 1986, at the age of 34, I have asked myself the fundamental existentialist question.
Who am I?
Accessority, I have asked myself the other fundamental existentialist questions.
From where do I come?
Where do I go?
Why do I go there?
How will I go there?
What is the meaning of life?
Why am I on Earth?
However, I have asked myself if I would not prefer to live my life as a woman instead of as a man because it seems to me that I have more common points with women than with men.
Indeed, I am very different of what I may define as a «standard woman» but I am also very different of what I may define as a «standard man» too.
Furthermore and to be honest, I feel fine when I am dressed as a woman.
That does not means that I hate to be dressed as a man but that means that if I have the choice, I prefer to be dressed as a woman.
I prefer wearing a nice dress with pantyhose and high heels shoes instead of wearing a jacket, a shirt, a necktie and a pair of trousers.
I feel confortable and more myself when I am dressed as a woman.
This is not
of logic but a question of feeling, of well being.
In 1986, I have decided that if I have to live more and more as a woman on a permanent way, work as a woman, do my outings as a woman, travel as a woman and integrate myself in the world of women, it will be more logical to choose a traditionnal feminine first name to identify myself as a woman and to give a name to the one that I call affectionately my «twin sister» or my alter ego.
I have choosen the first name of «Micheline».
Micheline is a lovely and classical first name, born by few women, easy to pronounce, easy to write, that sounds soft for the ear and that constitute a sweet combination with my family name, Micheline Montreuil.So, I have begun to slowly but continuously create or to ask for some identification cards, subscription cards, credit cards, phone bills, electricity bills, cable bills, bank accounts, etc. always at the name of Micheline Montreuil.
In 1992, at the age of 40, I have begun to do some outings publically and in daylight dressed as a woman in Quebec city.
In 1995, at the age of 43, I have begun to do some outings publically and in daylight dressed as a woman in United States.
I have travelled across Canada and passed through the American border many times fully dressed as a woman in car, in bus, in train, in plane and even in a ship like any other ordinary woman.
In 1996, at the age of 44, I have pronounced a conference at th 5th Convention of ICTLEP, the International Conference on Transgender Law and Employment Policy that was hold from July 3rd to july 7th, 1996 in Houston, Texas.
In 1996, at the age of 44, I have won the trophy of «Miss Best Dressed» at Fantasia Fair.
However, during all these trips, I have encountered often a little practical problem : my credit cards, my airplane tickets, my reservation and so on where under the name of Micheline Montreuil but my passport and my driver's licence were under my former name.
In September 1997, at the age of 45, I have decided to fill up a petition to change my name at the Registrar of civil status of the province of Quebec to request the addition of the firt name «Micheline» on my birth certificate to let me obtain my passport and my driver's licence under the name of «Micheline Montreuil» to solde all the little practical problems that I encounter from time to time.
Eventually, to maintain the coherence of my identity, I would have to request the proprer authorities to issue a new Social Insurance Number card, a new Medicare card and a new membership card for the Bar of the Province of Qubec because I am a lawyer.
On October 12, 1997, my request for my change of name has been published in the newspaper «Charlesbourg Express».
On October 25, 1997, my request for my change of name has been published in the «Gazette officielle du Québec».
On November 20, 1997, I have officially filled up my request for my change of name to the Registrar of civil status of the Province of Quebec to add the first name of Micheline on my birth certificate.
On Wenesday, December 3rd, 1997, Jean Leclerc, director of the human ressources department, and Louis-Mari Cormier, coordonnator of the human ressources department of Collège François-Xavier-Garneau in Quebec city where I teached law since August 1997 ask me to choose right away between a resignation or a dismissal arguing that I have been seen dressed as a woman in a shopping centre called Galeries de la Capitale in Quebec city and dresses as a woman at ah Halloween Party and that fact causes a serious prejudice to the fame of the College.
Jean Leclerc and Louis-Mari Cormier had given me only 30 secondes to take a decision without any prior notice.
I have teached 10 years at this College and my disciplinary file is empty.
On Thursday December 4th, 1997, I have lost my job as a teacher in Collège François-Xavier-Garneau.
On Friday December 5th, 1997, Micheline Montreuil is beginning to live fully her life as a woman because the lost of her job as a teacher has blowed away the last obstacle to let her live her life as a woman.
I have choosen to live fully my life dressed as a woman and it is as a woman that I wish to live my life.
On Wednesday May 13, 1998, I have taken the decision to cut all the links with my past and to erase all traces of my former male identity. Since that time, my former male identity has never reappared publically.
On Thursday September 10, 1998, after the publication of a judgment of the Superior Court of Quebec regarding the issue of a new driver's licence under the name of «Micheline Montreuil», reporters publish articles in newspapers regarding my request for a change of name and in the following hours, my story is known all across Canada and in some other countries.
This is the beginning of the public and publicised life of Micheline Montreuil, the Transgender Woman.
The rest of my story is now a
part of the
On November 7, 2002, the Court of
Appeal of Quebec ruled in my favor and gave me the first name of
On May 2, 2008, the Registrar of
Civil Status gave me my second first name of Anne.
I am now officially Micheline Anne Hélène Montreuil.
It is the end of a long battle that began in 1997; 14 years of battles to change my name.
Micheline Anne Hélène
at the Halloween party
From the age of 13 to 18, I am a curious transvestite because I search to understand but I stay hidden.
From the age of 18 to 23, I am a whimsical transvestite and even perhaps a fetichist because I have fun to dress myself as a woman but I stay hidden.
From the age of 23 to 34, I am an hidden transvestite because I wish to be seen without being seen. I wish to go out but I do not wish to be recognized.
From the age of 34 to 40, I am a serious transvestite who does some outings dressed as a woman and who wish to have her own female identity without knowing what is a transgender.
From the age of 40 to 43, I am an out-of-the-closet transvestite who does her outings dressed as a woman and with a real female identity.
From the age od 43 to 45, I am a known transgender who discovers herself and who has a real female identity.
From the age of 45 up to now, I have taken hormones to let my breast growing and I submit myself to laser treatment to remove unwanted hairs. I am a well known transgender who lives her life fully and permanently as a woman. Consequently, I may say that I am a pre-op transexual.
That means that I work dressed as a woman, do my outings dressed as a woman, travel dressed as a woman and try to be a part of the female word.
Today, all my identification cards are under the name of «Micheline Montreuil».
I am a person who feels at ease in her way of life and I am very proud and happy of my life.
However, it does not mean that some day I will have a vagina. Do I need one?
fine with my body and no changes are expected in a previsible future.
I lost a job that I liked, that of professor.
I lost some friends or people who claimed to be my friends.
Many jobs are closed to me, or close when the employer sees me.
The employers have a fear of hiring a «transgender»; this is not politically correct.
Numerous people discriminate against us.
Do I profit from the best of both worlds, that of men and that of women?
For many, I have the worst of both worlds.
The charters of rights give me perhaps certain rights but I have to fight to get them respected and that asks an enormous amount of time, money and effort.
Even if the situation is often very difficult, I continue to firmly hold the tiller and I try to get through this difficult situation; it is just a question of time.
Furthermore, I may count on the support of my spouse and of my family and it is very good for my morale.
On September 13, 1999, I gave my first course as a woman at the Université du Québec à Rimouski as an instructor in the Département de biologie, de chimie et de sciences de la santé in a course on medical ethics. I had therefore broken a new barrier.
On this point, I must offer homage to the Université du Québec à Rimouski which not only has a non-discrimination policy but which also puts it into practice.
On September 5, 2000, I have begun my doctorate in law as a woman at université Laval. I had therefore broken a new barrier.
On september 28, 2000, I have been elected as president of Association of students of 2nd et 3rd cycles in law at University Laval. I have broken a new barrier.
On Monday June 3rd, 2002, I have begun to work as a tax collector for the Collection Center of the Quebec Income Tax Department. Again, I have broken a new barrier.
On this point, I must offer homage to the Quebec Income Tax Department and more specifically to the Collection Center which not only has a non-discrimination policy but which also have managers who put it into practice.
On Wednesday January 22, 2003, I have been elected first vice-president of the Section 205 - Revenu Laval of the Syndicat de la fonction publique du Québec, the trade union for the public service employees of the Province of Quebec. Again, I have broken a new barrier.
On Thursday December 2, 2004, I have been elected president of the Section 225 - CPF MESSF Laval of the Syndicat de la fonction publique du Québec, the trade union for the public service employees of the Province of Quebec. Again, I have broken a new barrier.
I say, with a smile, that one must be a strong and proud man to build a strong and proud woman like Micheline.
I am the first well known transgender in Québec and it is me who must open the doors and pay the price.
Will I have someday big boobs and a vagina?
I have considered to pass through surgery to have breast implants and I know many persons who have passed through this surgery and the results are usually excellent.
However, I have decided not to go through this kind of surgery because I do not feel confident about surgery.
Do I need to have bigger boobs right now?
No but it is possible that, someday, I will go through this kind of surgery to have a mammary augmentation with silicone or saline implants.
If it is the case, I will have breasts implants and I will be very proud to have them.
However, if I do not have breasts implants, I will be very proud about my natural boobs.
I have begun an hormonal therapy in July 1998 and I see noticeable changes. In fact, I have a significative increase of the size of my breast and I have now nice medium boobs.
Is it so important to decide right now if I will have breasts implants when I do not know if I will submit myself to surgery?
I have also submited myself to laser treatments to remove unwanted hairs.
I am satisfied with the laser treatments; it is not perfect but it is rellay better than nothing.
Do I wish to have a vagina?
Right now, the answer is NO.
Perhaps, some day, I will have a vagina; perhaps, I will not.
I am a person who feels at ease in my way of life and I am very proud and happy of my life.
However, it does not mean that some day I will have a vagina. Do I need one?
Right now, I feel fine with my body and no changes are expected in a previsible future.
Is it so important to decide right now about something that may never happens?
Que sera, sera - What ever will be, will be.